Iím Sorry, Rosebud.

© Jerry Davis  5-4-00 


Iím sorry, Rosebud.  I know we shouldnít have given you a name.  Giving you a name made you a family member.  

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  I know you were the smartest cow we had and you always listened and watched for us coming with the feed pickup. 

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  I know it will be tough for the rest of the herd cows to manage without you; but they will just have to learn to deal without your leadership.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  The next lead cow hasnít been chosen yet.  Cows make their decisions in ways I donít always understand. 

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  With all your skills of knowing when to follow or when to graze made you stand out above the rest.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.   If we had understood you were mineral deficient, we would have tried to do better.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  You had calves and more calves and served you time here on the ranch well.  If your peers could read better we would put up a plaque honoring you in front of others.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.   I donít think the others even knew your name but I know they understood when you told them in your own way that feed was on the way.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  We knew that sometime we would have to say bye to you but we certainly didnít expect it to end this way.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  You did get a decent family burial with dignity.  A dozer put your carcass below varmint level so your bones wonít be distributed across the pasture like some other unfortunate animals have been.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  You did make it a little difficult when you bellowed at your calf when he came to pay his final respects before your last day.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  You can rest well knowing your calf was of weaning age and hasnít been back looking for you after your last day.  Calves only mourn for 3 days so he is Ok by now.

Iím sorry, Rosebud. Your last meal was one of your favorites, I didnít have to even ask; grain cubes, fresh hay and water.  It was no burden for me to hand it to you, a family member.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  It was appropriate for you to blow and snort your nose on me but I still couldnít make you get over your paralysis.  

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  You could have a least blinked or closed your bright eyes at the very last moment as I tried not to think of you as a family member that had to be destroyed.

Iím sorry, Rosebud.  We have retired your number.